Una carta escrita el 1 de Abril de 2023

en Chile
Still i havent found what im looking for

Hello Isidora How are you? You get all the thing you want? I BEEN FEELING SO SAD Im 16 yo now, right now, the last few weeks Ive been feeling so sad, Idk why, I thought that was because of my holidays, a lot of free time, so i got bored, i thought that when i started school i would be happier, but i still feel very sad. On sunday i went to UNDESIRE concert it was very good i gave a hug to atma,azazel and dante i thought that would make me happier but i still feel sad ANEMIC Some week ago I was diagnosed anemia again (second time but probably i would have it more times). Im taking pills, are expensive but my mom find it for 19.990 MY BODY AND MIND I dont want to tell you thing i dont like my body for years (weight and shoulders) only i feel like my body doesnt want to live anymore, is tired, my mind neither, but i dont know how will be the life of my brother and mom without me, and i have goals, a lot, i want to be a english teacher, learn lenguages, go to japan and germany, travel the world, meet my idols, but i dont want to live, i have a lot of love, a lot of friends, but i still feeling like this. today i slept and i dreamed that i vomited worms, i feel like my organs are dying, it doesnt want to live. My brain want to live but it thinks a lot that get stressed; maybe my heart doesnt work good, it trys to live, but i get dizzy really easily and i feel how my blood flows faster to my head; my lungs will forget to work, sometimes i feel like i cant breath. My digestive system has been always a shit, starting with it doesnt catch the iron. My sexual organs are shit too, but probably good, 3 days of blood, theres no pain, but i take so long to love me. My nails breaks and my hair fell up, theres bruises on my body. When am i going to faint i feel how my ears only hear a "pitchy & white noise", my vision blurs, and i fell up, while i wake up, i feel im moving a lot, my head hurts because of the hit with the floor. BROTHER & MOTHER My brother he remains the same, i love him, a lot, but why cant he be better, My mom is a love. I want them both to be happy and fulfill their goals. FRIENDS I have a lot of friends, and more at the harajuku and visual kei scene. but no one is my best friend, except winter (evie), shes still with me, i want to meet her in rl. Now, You meet her? SCHOOL Im pretty good at school LOVE why i cant be loved? i know im pretty, but why nobody ask me for beign his girlfriend. Maybe no one will love me in my life I am a beign that cant be loved. Maybe, the at the year 2086 i will repentant for not have a partner for life FUTURE I usually think about my future but only at my 20-30 years, i dont know, have +30 is hard in this fucking world, I will have +30? PETS Tontin makes me really sad How is falabella? And how about tulio? And my first dog, Hueso, how is he? You get the scholar? dont worry, i think i cant get it, i can speak english well, but the questions are hard



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Una carta del 1 de Abril de 2023

en Chile
Still i havent found what im looking for

Hello Isidora How are you? You get all the thing you want? I BEEN FEELING SO SAD Im 16 yo now, right now, the last few weeks Ive been feeling so sad, Idk why, I thought that was because of my holidays, a lot of free time, so i got bored, i thought that when i started school i would be happier, but i still feel very sad. On sunday i went to UNDESIRE concert it was very good i gave a hug to atma,azazel and dante i thought that would make me happier but i still feel sad ANEMIC Some week ago I was diagnosed anemia again (second time but probably i would have it more times). Im taking pills, are expensive but my mom find it for 19.990 MY BODY AND MIND I dont want to tell you thing i dont like my body for years (weight and shoulders) only i feel like my body doesnt want to live anymore, is tired, my mind neither, but i dont know how will be the life of my brother and mom without me, and i have goals, a lot, i want to be a english teacher, learn lenguages, go to japan and germany, travel the world, meet my idols, but i dont want to live, i have a lot of love, a lot of friends, but i still feeling like this. today i slept and i dreamed that i vomited worms, i feel like my organs are dying, it doesnt want to live. My brain want to live but it thinks a lot that get stressed; maybe my heart doesnt work good, it trys to live, but i get dizzy really easily and i feel how my blood flows faster to my head; my lungs will forget to work, sometimes i feel like i cant breath. My digestive system has been always a shit, starting with it doesnt catch the iron. My sexual organs are shit too, but probably good, 3 days of blood, theres no pain, but i take so long to love me. My nails breaks and my hair fell up, theres bruises on my body. When am i going to faint i feel how my ears only hear a "pitchy & white noise", my vision blurs, and i fell up, while i wake up, i feel im moving a lot, my head hurts because of the hit with the floor. BROTHER & MOTHER My brother he remains the same, i love him, a lot, but why cant he be better, My mom is a love. I want them both to be happy and fulfill their goals. FRIENDS I have a lot of friends, and more at the harajuku and visual kei scene. but no one is my best friend, except winter (evie), shes still with me, i want to meet her in rl. Now, You meet her? SCHOOL Im pretty good at school LOVE why i cant be loved? i know im pretty, but why nobody ask me for beign his girlfriend. Maybe no one will love me in my life I am a beign that cant be loved. Maybe, the at the year 2086 i will repentant for not have a partner for life FUTURE I usually think about my future but only at my 20-30 years, i dont know, have +30 is hard in this fucking world, I will have +30? PETS Tontin makes me really sad How is falabella? And how about tulio? And my first dog, Hueso, how is he? You get the scholar? dont worry, i think i cant get it, i can speak english well, but the questions are hard



By YoDelFuturo ®

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